Parati na lang bang ganito?
Dapat bang tanggapin ko na hindi na magbabago?
Namamanhid na yata ang buhay na bato
Sa isang banda, mas panatag ang bagyo
Sinong makakapagsabi kung mabuti ito?
Ganito din ba para sa kanila?
Ganito na nga ba talaga?
Madalas, babaeng walang buhay ang tanging kaulayaw ko
Hindi din naman masaya kapag walang tinig ang kausap ko
Sa ganitong pag-iisip, ako'y nagiging kalunos-lunos
Kailan kaya kami magpapalit ng sapatos?
Sa kabila ng lahat, mas ikapapanatag ko na ako'y naisantabi
kaysa malaman na may anumang nangyari
Palagi na lang ganito
Marahil hindi mahalaga ang mga agam-agam ko
Ngunit habang hindi pa tuluyang namamanhid ito
Maingay pa din ang alingawngaw ng kalungkutan ko
Pero nararamdaman ko na malapit na..
Malapit na tuluyang matulog ang bagyo.
Friday, November 10, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
A Mirror
One of the ways to know yourself is to ask other people...or websites with pre-defined and pre-programmed analysis given one's simple responses. I am still by far the most accurate source of who I think I am although I believe I know myself very little.=P
Credits go to Vanins... I got this from your blog...
Credits go to Vanins... I got this from your blog...
| Your Five Factor Personality Profile |
 Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations. A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you. You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is low. You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable. You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea. While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise. |
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Writer's block
And then there was Nothing. Blank. Void.
Nonsense typed in to add color to the white screen.
Words suspended in mid-air. Waiting. Steady.
So much to say with so little time.
Opportunity is used and yet lost.
Mind and heart is in limbo.
Limbo is reached effortlessly. Why?
Pause. Comtemplate. Waste time.
Limbo is my defense. It is neutral. Safe.
The trade-off for the absence of evil is the absence of good.
Tick tock says the clock...
Something awakens and consciousness whispers.
Take the good, as well as the bad.
Sadness and happiness.
If there is nothing ugly, then nothing is beautiful.
Revel in conflict. Revel in life.
But there's just too much hard work. Waste of time.
But what is time well spent?
Do nothing? Be safe?
Echoes of sanity seeps in.
I want to live.
Do everything and anything but be in control.
Revel in conflict. Revel in life.
Writer's block.
A classic example of making something from nothing.
As Pablo puts it:
Pure nonsense; pure wisdom.
Nonsense typed in to add color to the white screen.
Words suspended in mid-air. Waiting. Steady.
So much to say with so little time.
Opportunity is used and yet lost.
Mind and heart is in limbo.
Limbo is reached effortlessly. Why?
Pause. Comtemplate. Waste time.
Limbo is my defense. It is neutral. Safe.
The trade-off for the absence of evil is the absence of good.
Tick tock says the clock...
Something awakens and consciousness whispers.
Take the good, as well as the bad.
Sadness and happiness.
If there is nothing ugly, then nothing is beautiful.
Revel in conflict. Revel in life.
But there's just too much hard work. Waste of time.
But what is time well spent?
Do nothing? Be safe?
Echoes of sanity seeps in.
I want to live.
Do everything and anything but be in control.
Revel in conflict. Revel in life.
Writer's block.
A classic example of making something from nothing.
As Pablo puts it:
Pure nonsense; pure wisdom.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Salamat
It is finally beginning to sink in. I will finally have a second job. Life as I have known it for four years will finally change. Soon, there will be a new place for me to spend 40 hours every week in.
It is with optimism, and maybe a little bit of anxiety, that I look forward to my new work. Before I start to sound like the valedictorian of a graduating class on a podium, I would like to recall the important things that I have learned from the people that I have worked with for the past four years.
From Rossel I learned to appreciate beauty for what it truly is: skin deep. You are only as beautiful as your heart. Her love for her Matthew inspires me to nurture my love for others.
Fe taught me the value of balance. She is one of the few who has seen me grow for better (or worse). Her competency in all aspects of life is truly something to aspire for.
I learned to be more thoughtful through Bambi. There are a million ways to show your friends how special they are and they do not have to be grandiose or extravagant.
Oss continually reminds me of the power of laughter. It is found in even the most mundane activities. Her devotion to Anette reminds me that miracles happen everyday.
Dance to the beat that life sets for you. Dona tells me to dance despite the lack of choreography or of grace.
Lea showed me how to laugh at myself and to accept myself completely. There is always something new and wonderful about me despite my imperfections.
Express yourself. This is something that Cecile preaches and practices.
Ms. Thelma taught me to speak out and speak loud only when I am right. Otherwise, I should just shut up.
Ms. Len tells me that there is life after work. Work should not be your life but it should be something that you have to learn to love.
Ms. Diane demonstrates what it is like to have grace under pressure. I hope to take home some of her dedication.
Bernie reinforces my belief that there is power in silence. Silence does not translate to timidity or complacence.
The migraines that I do not get from work tell me that I somehow enjoyed my tasks. Sir H's headaches from CPD showed me this.
Truth is, all the bits of wisdom that I have picked up from this place and from the people that have taught me these are too many to mention. I could not mention everything and everyone even if I attempted to.
For all who are mentioned here and otherwise, the chorus of one of my my favorite songs
is especially for you.
It is with optimism, and maybe a little bit of anxiety, that I look forward to my new work. Before I start to sound like the valedictorian of a graduating class on a podium, I would like to recall the important things that I have learned from the people that I have worked with for the past four years.
From Rossel I learned to appreciate beauty for what it truly is: skin deep. You are only as beautiful as your heart. Her love for her Matthew inspires me to nurture my love for others.
Fe taught me the value of balance. She is one of the few who has seen me grow for better (or worse). Her competency in all aspects of life is truly something to aspire for.
I learned to be more thoughtful through Bambi. There are a million ways to show your friends how special they are and they do not have to be grandiose or extravagant.
Oss continually reminds me of the power of laughter. It is found in even the most mundane activities. Her devotion to Anette reminds me that miracles happen everyday.
Dance to the beat that life sets for you. Dona tells me to dance despite the lack of choreography or of grace.
Lea showed me how to laugh at myself and to accept myself completely. There is always something new and wonderful about me despite my imperfections.
Express yourself. This is something that Cecile preaches and practices.
Ms. Thelma taught me to speak out and speak loud only when I am right. Otherwise, I should just shut up.
Ms. Len tells me that there is life after work. Work should not be your life but it should be something that you have to learn to love.
Ms. Diane demonstrates what it is like to have grace under pressure. I hope to take home some of her dedication.
Bernie reinforces my belief that there is power in silence. Silence does not translate to timidity or complacence.
The migraines that I do not get from work tell me that I somehow enjoyed my tasks. Sir H's headaches from CPD showed me this.
Truth is, all the bits of wisdom that I have picked up from this place and from the people that have taught me these are too many to mention. I could not mention everything and everyone even if I attempted to.
For all who are mentioned here and otherwise, the chorus of one of my my favorite songs
is especially for you.
Monday, May 08, 2006
My Wish
I
These are snapshots of my first outing for the year. I'm here stuck at work and desperately wishing for another one. Attention Lakbayers!!!
Monday, April 03, 2006
Bits of Wisdom...
...these are as ubiquitous as mobile phones and suffering. They're as present as pollution in Metro Manila and as constant as the migraines that my sister gets. I admit, I am sometimes too "busy" to spot them. Lately, I've been lucky.
"Boredom is a gift." - Roxy
A gift indeed. I just realized I had time to sapre.
"No judgements!" - Pat
Here, here! Judging is a burden that God does not give us.
"You can never (can) tell!" - Dimps
Que Sera Sera, whatever will be, will be...
"...use the fridge to thaw!" - Nerks
A statment not just for food.
"Use the toaster to heat pizza." - Fefot
There is always a better way to do things.
"Bata ka pa!" - Rossel
There is always hope.
"Umuwi tayo ng maaga." - Ygme
Pure wisdom.
I can't wait to come up with my own.
"Boredom is a gift." - Roxy
A gift indeed. I just realized I had time to sapre.
"No judgements!" - Pat
Here, here! Judging is a burden that God does not give us.
"You can never (can) tell!" - Dimps
Que Sera Sera, whatever will be, will be...
"...use the fridge to thaw!" - Nerks
A statment not just for food.
"Use the toaster to heat pizza." - Fefot
There is always a better way to do things.
"Bata ka pa!" - Rossel
There is always hope.
"Umuwi tayo ng maaga." - Ygme
Pure wisdom.
I can't wait to come up with my own.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Hope for the Lost
I lost my blazer. More than that, I lost:
Everytime I lose something, my mind automatically plays this line from an OST of a Sandra Bullock flick: "Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you got 'til it's gone...."
God knows how many things (and people) I have lost in my lifetime. Some through my own fault, others by accident, and still some by choice (applicable to people only). Still, I believe that for every loss, there wil be a gain, regardless of whether it is tangible or not.
I cannot and do not intend to promise not to lose anything anymore. I will try my best, though. If and when I do lose something or, God forbid, someone again, I will make sure that I do not lose the lesson.
There is hope that my blazer and I will be reunited, you know. I can still go back to where I think I could've left it. On the other hand, there is a difference when we talk about wisdom, love, relationships, people, respect, faith, dignity, happiness, and truth. These are things in life that one cannot afford to lose. But when you do lose one of these things, there will always be hope of finding it again.
Hope shines eternal.
- Warmth. It is insanely cold here.
- Inconspicuousness. I am now very visible.
- Trendiness. My uniform does not look as nice without it.
Everytime I lose something, my mind automatically plays this line from an OST of a Sandra Bullock flick: "Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you got 'til it's gone...."
God knows how many things (and people) I have lost in my lifetime. Some through my own fault, others by accident, and still some by choice (applicable to people only). Still, I believe that for every loss, there wil be a gain, regardless of whether it is tangible or not.
I cannot and do not intend to promise not to lose anything anymore. I will try my best, though. If and when I do lose something or, God forbid, someone again, I will make sure that I do not lose the lesson.
There is hope that my blazer and I will be reunited, you know. I can still go back to where I think I could've left it. On the other hand, there is a difference when we talk about wisdom, love, relationships, people, respect, faith, dignity, happiness, and truth. These are things in life that one cannot afford to lose. But when you do lose one of these things, there will always be hope of finding it again.
Hope shines eternal.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Reminder
Old rhymes still ring true.
I came across this poem as I was tinkering with my "documents" on my not-so-orderly desk. Its message could not have been more timely and needed than now. This just goes to show that there is wisdom in chaos.
Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
--Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.
I came across this poem as I was tinkering with my "documents" on my not-so-orderly desk. Its message could not have been more timely and needed than now. This just goes to show that there is wisdom in chaos.
Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
--Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.
Friday, January 20, 2006
Love Letter
Dear Lara,
Hi! It's been a long time. How are you? I hope you're doing fairly better than our last time together.
As with any other year, 2005 flew right by us. In retrospect, we spent a lot of quality time together, you and I, but I know you are beginning to detach yourself from me. That is not such a bad thing, you know. You're growing and beginning to see that there are better people to spend your time with. Your views and aspirations have altered, along with your disposition. You're not as defensive but you have grown more aggressive. You've grown more comfortable with new things and more flexible in terms of accepting situations or events that don't quite meet your expectations. You're fortifying old friendships and establishing new ones. You now have a team that I know you love and are proud of because your team performs well despite all the sadness and hurts that you've experienced as a part of it. There are times that you prefer to spend most of your time with your team mate than with me for reasons that are sometimes not altruistic, but I take no offense. I accept that I'm not the only person that you rely on now but that makes me worry a bit. You know how much I worry. Thank God for you and for those who remind me not to. Do you remember our long-standing belief that the more people that you attach yourself to, the greater the risk of disappointment there is? The world outside our own is scarier indeed. My dear, I can see that we're gradually drifting apart. Our safe place does not leave you content anymore. And if that is the case, then I think that you're stronger now than I expected you to be.
As I slowly loosen my hold on you, I promise that I wouldn't be too far away because I can't even if we both wanted to. I know you have new needs and you now need new people. But know that we will always need and have each other. I will never be far. May your new year be even better. It hasn't started out great but it will soon take off. If we only have more faith.
Be good always. Do not replace virtues with transitory happiness. God bless!
Always,
Lara
Hi! It's been a long time. How are you? I hope you're doing fairly better than our last time together.
As with any other year, 2005 flew right by us. In retrospect, we spent a lot of quality time together, you and I, but I know you are beginning to detach yourself from me. That is not such a bad thing, you know. You're growing and beginning to see that there are better people to spend your time with. Your views and aspirations have altered, along with your disposition. You're not as defensive but you have grown more aggressive. You've grown more comfortable with new things and more flexible in terms of accepting situations or events that don't quite meet your expectations. You're fortifying old friendships and establishing new ones. You now have a team that I know you love and are proud of because your team performs well despite all the sadness and hurts that you've experienced as a part of it. There are times that you prefer to spend most of your time with your team mate than with me for reasons that are sometimes not altruistic, but I take no offense. I accept that I'm not the only person that you rely on now but that makes me worry a bit. You know how much I worry. Thank God for you and for those who remind me not to. Do you remember our long-standing belief that the more people that you attach yourself to, the greater the risk of disappointment there is? The world outside our own is scarier indeed. My dear, I can see that we're gradually drifting apart. Our safe place does not leave you content anymore. And if that is the case, then I think that you're stronger now than I expected you to be.
As I slowly loosen my hold on you, I promise that I wouldn't be too far away because I can't even if we both wanted to. I know you have new needs and you now need new people. But know that we will always need and have each other. I will never be far. May your new year be even better. It hasn't started out great but it will soon take off. If we only have more faith.
Be good always. Do not replace virtues with transitory happiness. God bless!
Always,
Lara
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